They must be Gods, I thought.
How else
did they learn so well,
while I could not
remember anything?
They must be gods, I thought.
How else could they
write, write, write in halls,
where floors squeaked
and sun beams
danced the motes of dust?
The scratch of pens on paper.
They must be gods,
or I’m a fool.
Yes,
that must be it.
For off they went
where clever people
gain letters.
And I was left to
work my hands.
My mind still dwelt
where words were spun
but that was not to be,
for I was a fool.
So, as with those
who spurn our love.
I trampled on the memory
of flowing speech;
cascades of sounds
that filled the mind
with tears, love and laughter.
That world was not for me.
I must forgo it.
Then through the agony
of an ailing heart.
The words, my friend;
dying piece by piece,
gave back to me,
surfaced in my mind
and I was whole again.
Now these animated
living pebbles
in the brook of life,
roll to make music
in my heart.
They spring, as
water from the living rock,
to chuckle or to stab.
I hardly know from where.
Yes they were gods.
The lucky, clever many;
who sailed the seas
of knowledge, years ago,
when I was a fool.
Because I could not learn
the way they did.
David Garlick, Victoria, August, 1995